Crossing Over

Today I’ve been on my computer too much, working on something that I’d much rather not have to work on. I have to though. It’s important.

I’ve been pretty mad about this issue. My mood is evolving. I talked to my dad for a while and he gave me aome great perspective and wise advice. My goal is to write out what the problem is, distance myself from it and stop being mad and anxious.

Putting my feelings, thoughts and truths down on paper is helping me back away and is lessening my anxiety.

I’m guilty of creating unnecessary outcomes in my mind. All the time I tell other people not to do the same, but I find I return to made-up outcomes. Then, I stew over the outcome I’ve created and experience totally unnecessary anxiety over something that hasn’t even happened yet.

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I’m going to try my best to recognize the anxiety when it creeps back in, acknowledge it and turn it over again and again. —LLD

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I think it’s a real challenge to switch my brain away from anxiety, but why would I want to repeat experience scenarios that may never, and probably won’t, happen. It can be a vicious cycle.

At this moment, I’m turning my anxiety over to God and to those professionals who will guide me through this unfortunate situation.

Later today might be a different story or tomorrow and so on, but I’m going to try my best to recognize the anxiety when it creeps back in, acknowledge it and turn it over again and again.