Deep Breath

I signed a contract today. I actually picked up my Artist's Way book and read the whole introduction and then committed to a 12 week transformation.

The transformation, though, only happens if I do the work, though, and there is what seems to be A LOT of "work", but the more I process what the author said, the more that I feel like it is important work--not the daily-grind, but the renewing mind.

Julia, the author, talks about our inner "Censor" ... the voice that says, "you're not doing it right, you need to stop, don't go there, look you failed again, forget this, remember you're not that creative---not as creative as other people-like the famous ones, and on-and-on".

Gosh. I hear that voice a lot. It's super distracting. I probably fall for it 9 times out of 10. While I'd like to be the person who takes the "path of least resistance", I think I'm more of the person who occasionally takes the difficult path but repeatedly defaults to the easier way--Hear the censor in that sentence?

I have even started the work of the book, and I can already identify the censor's voice. It's critical. Harsh. Stronger as I get stronger... we'll see.

My journey starts Sunday night.

I'm nervous, anxious but also a little giddy with excitement.

I can do this.

I've committed.

Promised.

Asked Don for accountability.

Here's to the journey!

{deep breath}